been a while

sorry i haven't posted for the past few days, the dust has been settling! no problems, just continued adjustment. this week ended my 1st week of giving tours to people & talking to hundreds of vacationing guests in the visitors center. i was not sure if i'd be able to speak anymore . . . but i managed not to go hoarse. ptl. im in the swing of things now, and, after today, my schedule has normalized to working wed-sun with mon & tue off - now i'll have some sense of a 'standard' week.

yesterday i had to chance to drive around the island with my housemates, denny & sharon. i was so blessed to be able to do this, so now i have much better sense of what the rest of the island is like, what people are seeing, and where random places are located. i also got to get my feet into some beaches here on the big island, as the beaches by my town are not the nicest for relaxing.

today i woke up with such excitement because i was going to church! i haven't been to church the the past 3 weeks, and looked forward to being among the fellowship of christian brothers & sisters. i left feeling alone in a room full of people - not the way one should feel after being @ church. the sermon was exactly what i needed to hear [coming back to God for peace & strength], but i had no fellowship that ive been placing such a high priority on. i realize God wants it to be just me & Him for a little while. and im becoming increasingly okay with that. it's not my first choice, but i guess He's teaching me something. wait, im going to EXPECT that He's teaching me something & look for how He's gonna work it all out . . .

until then, it's just me and God . . .

OH, i just read an article & it totally changed something ive been thinking about. so i always go back to John 6:44 that says God will draw people to himself when i think about helping ppl find Christ. i took the view of God will bring them to himself & if He chooses to involve me, then PTL. John 12:32 gives me a new point of view: 'if I am lifted up on earth, i will draw all men to myself'. hummm. so i can help this process along by causing His name to be lifted up & then He'll draw the people in. sure i knew this, but it hit me today.