going, going

it feels like life is now 'back to normal'. i have a schedule that is 'predictable' [haha rach], im at a comfortable place with coworkers & i know what is expected of me. then i realize that, in actuality, there is no 'back to normal' to experience. & ive also decided that i don't want anymore 'back to normal' days, weeks, months or years. i don't want things the way they 'used to be'. i like not knowing what is around the corner b/c it keeps me in a place of surrender. its a hard place to live in, but just knowing that God knows what is next is growing on me & im getting more & more used to living that way. i don't know whats around the corner [and i haven't for the past 3 years], so why should i want to live aware of what is next? life just takes more faith, but God's writting a beautiful, dynamic, awesome & epic story. im so glad to be in it. and if you're reading this now, you are part of my story. thanks for being w/ me on it! im glad im in your story, too. :)